Breaking Down

"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened."
- Douglas Couplan

When we are young, we always see the world through rose-colored glasses. We think everything around is absolutely perfect.
However, as we grow up, we realize there are many things which just look good in story-books or in movies...
In real life, "honesty is not the best policy" nor does "truth always triumph". The whole concept of a "happily ever after" existed only "once upon a time" when we were small...

When we grow up, we are burdened with so many responsibilities. We do not even have the time to do things we like and we end up doing things which we never wanted to do in the first place! There are times when we realize that we are actually at a dead end but we still remain in that place and don't make a U-Turn because taking the whole road back and starting from scratch does not seem to be a very comfortable idea.
Teenagers are always called 'rebellious' but being passionate and standing up for things we truly believe in does not seem wrong to me. As we grow up, we sober down and conform to what society wants us to be - and end up killing our individuality.
The other day I was reading the book Veronika Decides to Die by Paul Coelho - there was one part which struck me...as a mental patient in an asylum, one is free to say what one wants; one can do what they want - they will never be criticized - but once we are outside, we have to behave in a certain way, think before speaking and we cannot do something just because we feel like doing it!

There are many times my mother tells me "You are growing up now. Behave like a lady." I am sure all of us have heard such dialogues from our elders at some point of time or the other. I find it exasperating! Just because I am growing up I do not have to stop liking the things I liked before!
As I grow up, I realize I just want to be the little girl I was - away from the harsh realities of life! I do not want to be moulded into someone I am not...I just hope this world lets me be...